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I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I just don't know what I'm supposed to be. I can't find a style of my own, whatever I write, compose, create, I hate. Everything I do seems so mediocre. It's not false modesty or anything. I strongly believe I suck at this. There are so many people who inspire me, that's why I started this blog in the first place, to collect inspiring works of people I admire. It seems I just can't really put this inspiration into something productive. Whatever I try, there goes nothing. They say every artist has his pauses and his moments of stagnation. Too bad I'm not at all an artist, to use that as a plausible excuse. I need musings and muses. I need something or someone to keep me "on the edge of my seat" again.
Oh, and this blog? This blog is a lousy excuse for a..whatever it's supposed to be. Seriously, don't you think?