what I've learned

-absolutely nothing good can come out of overthinking things
-when i have days like these (when every fly or any other of these insignificant things makes me go completely insane), it's better if i lock myself in the basement -just to be sure i don't stab anyone with a pen
-people hardly ever think of others (that is if they ever do), so it really doesn't matter what they think of you
-there's no use in making lists, most of the items remain unchecked (but i still make lists)
-apparently our time is really limited so we shouldn't waste it, but the whole "live your life to its fullest" crap isn't at all inspiring, just depressing
-we need to get out of this town more often
-we all have guilty pleasures, but i really should stop smoking
-you can't cure insomnia
-the worst part of blogging is the fear that i'll waste my life in front of a keyboard. mm, too bad
-singing and dancing in your room might have serious consequences
-if you're going to screw up everything anyway, you might as well enjoy the process
-never miss concerts, especially if the band might never return to this shit hole again
-there has to be something better to do on a friday night instead of watching "Scarecrow" for the 5th time (like going to one of those not-to-be-missed-concerts, right?)
-everything else is secondary

les improvements

first of all, I'll finish all the books I gathered on my night stand. Before summer starts;
very important, I'll start taking guitar lessons again, the more time I waste, the less I remember from what I learned last year;
also, I'll try to update the blog as often as possible. It's kind of constructive, really, it helps me get out of my head for a little while, and get things in order;
oh, and about that..is there anybody even reading this? because if it is, it might get awkward at times, I'm sorry for that.
anther one..well, I want to start writting again. This one's a tricky one though. I'm a bit too subjective, and I hate almost everything I write. Maybe I'm not good at this at all. But that only leaves me with the music, and I'm to crazy to be a musician.
more, it would be nice if I wouldn't obsess on every little detail all the time. I need to be more relaxed. Seriously. Relax.
(i know it's kind of stupid, but I never had time for a proper "new year's resolutions", so this will have to do.)
going further, I know that nobody wants to hear any of my teenage shit, but I really miss having a crush. I miss that almost electric feeling in the pit of my stomach, I miss being happy for no apparent reason, I miss all the little things. You know what I mean? It's not normal to be in high-school and not to have a damn crush. It's been so long, too long.
also, I want late night walks and lots and lots of concerts. I want comfort. I'm sick of running and spinning around certain people and certain things because it's the "proper" thing to do. I want to do stuff. Too much of a cliche?

P.S.-Today I'm listening to:



this last one, I'm obsessed with it.

things that annoy me today #1

• low battery
• being an insecure mess
  
• stupid questions
• it's not friday
• people walking slowly in front of me
• too much food
• no concerts/good movies tonight
  
• not feeling like moving on
• stupid nike shoes
• 'eat pray love'
  
• doesn't get my telepathic message saying to mind
• being broke
• ham
• boys who wear white jeans
• needing/wanting a cigarette
  
• pickpockets
  
• stupid people
  
• that song playing again and again in my head
• bad hair day
• having stupid insignificant problems
  
• and minding them
  

current obsessions

1. thé des sources and magazines- instead of the vogue magazines in the picture, i read my father's entire Esquire collection
2. flying birds prints
3. b. wood's oogum boogum- if i were to describe my style using a song, this would be it
4. lover's start by how to dress well
5. alexa chung- i have a biiig lady-crush on her
6. 11:11- good things tend to happen at this hour
7. unearthen necklaces at bonadrag


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